Saturday, February 11, 2006
Dignification.
It is only now that i realise, i am so damn friggin hot-headed, and that i am too direct in terms of getting my point across. I am rash in my actions. The direct opposition of my written-self. Somehow, im starting to feel like a perfectionist now. I wonder why. Maybe its because i never loved cock-ups, or due to all the insecurities locked up in myself. Either way, i cant seem to stand many things now. Foul plays, humiliation of others, imbecility of others, i cant stand them all without voicing out what i think nowadays. I think someday, this frankness of mine would prove to be my downfall, to be the characteristic of mine that leads me to nowhere. Yet, i cant possibly sit aside and do no shit when i see such unjust being executed, can i? I guess all these matter not that much anymore, since today was already screwed up.Per se monseior, what Timothy and Junyuan did today simply pissed my ass off. Just because of a freaking dumb crap grudge against Shaun Kwan of 4D1, these 3 classmates of mine turned into brainless retards when they finally managed to pwn(dota language player-kill) him and then start hurling insults. I dont see how much more intelligent can they get by doing that. Just because Shaun finds pride in his Dota abilities they had to do such shit. I mean CMON LAH. Get a life. Who doesnt have an ego? Maybe not some(like ME LOL), But definitely Shaun. Its not as if Timothy and Junyuan do not have an ego themselves either. If they didnt they wouldnt have beared a grudge against him. Still, Shaun do have an ego. And by doing what they did today, the object of such insults could have his ego, pride and self-esteem crushed. Yet when insulted, Shaun merely continued playing on, not even giving a single guai lan response to their insults. So when i backed him up by telling them off, Timothy had the gulls to glare at me across the computer table. He has my heartfelt respect for his bravery in the bombastic fields of insolence. I mean cmon. HE DOESNT EVEN THINK HE IS IN THE WRONG. Screw off men. That is a show of his ego. So when nic and i refused another game with them, they just come and kpkb us and term us "sore". They dont seem to realise what we were not happy about was the way they tried to entice Shaun into an argument, not the fact that we lost. Its not as if we didnt have the chance to call them sore - we were pwning them from mid-game until Timothy backdoored our top barracks - , we definitely had the chance to call them sore when they were whining about how we were ganking. Its called TEAMWORK for fuck's sake. Face it. They ganked too when they had to kill Shaun. They placed 2 feeders on our team for a 4v5 so that they can be fed more, and used that to the full advantage while having a ridiculous play of 3 heroes from our side for mid with the other 2 soloing. It wasnt until 1 of our feeders dc'ed then we managed to change the tide. So really, whos sore? No, im not sore. If they werent sore, will they be jeering the moment they had the chance? Henceforth, i find satisfaction in terming Timothy's and Junyuan's actions for today, (forgive me lao shi, its the fact)Dumb Like A Mdm Liu Jian.Currently just feel so indignified for Shaun. I seriously wonder should i ever acknowledge Timothy as a close friend after today. And regarding the thing about a new blog, lets just say i didnt say anything <_
http://dignification.blogspot.com
I seriously wonder whether i did the right thing.
Jinius Tan Ha Ha [2/11/2006 04:12:00 PM]
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