Tuesday, October 04, 2005
Treason.
And the above word unfolds a thousand tales. Treason. How does it feel to be stabbed in the back by someone u trusted so much him/her knew almost every single secret of yours? How does it feel, when that person, having stabbed you in the back and having left you dead as a corpse, proceed to act as if nothing happened, and thinking that you knew nothing of his/her treachery at all, continue to make fun of, tease you of, or to joke with you, about one of the deepest lying secrets that you wished no-one would ever speak of ever again. That is exactly how i feel now.Am i really such a good person as you all think im made out to be? Do you all truly think that is my nature? Do you all seriously think that is me? I also have a devil within me. I also Lie. I also Act. And finally, one fine day, my tail will reveal me....... But no fear, the day has yet to come LOL. Even if i am so, must you all twist and turn me until i really have no breathing space? Must you all, for all your selfish benefits and irresponsible thoughts of "Me"-logy, make use of me to the extent i fall sick? I really wonder, if there really lies such a word called Loyalty in this world. It is the one word i stick to most, the one word i base my life in. Yet it seems to me, Loyalty means peanuts to this Retarded World. But even peanuts are worth $600k. So what really is Loyalty? It will always be priceless to me, for i see no meaning in life without it. No Loyalty, that would be as good as a world with no front doors, but only back doors and secret passages. A real sneaky world. Loyalty. Loyalty. As it seems, people nowadays would rather give up their Loyalty for Benefits and Gains. That is people nowadays. But there are always the few Loyal people whom i seek. Many term themselves loyal, yet they do not seem to know, that Loyalty is more than what they think it is. It is also about Self-Controlling, about Persevering, about Trust. Perhaps those i seek never really existed. For most do not have the self-control.... nor the will... to turn down benefits...Treason... Audacious... Atrocious... This is an act i strived never to commit. Yet my reward is a taste of this act. So kindness begets kindness... and who claims so? Perhaps that person does know his/her fault, but either the person thinks im dumb, or that person does not understand me at all, despite the humongous load of secrets he/she knows. The backstab the person committed. The person knew i wouldnt like it at all if the person did that, but the person did it anyway. All for the person's own good. A selfless act, had it been done by others. But no, the person did so for the person's OWN GOOD. Selfish, that is all i can say. The ideal reason for Treason, is it not. If the person seriously is dumb or does not know me, the person perhaps does not know of my distrust of him/her now, but let it be Known... ...that i will track the person... ...and that i now scheme... ...i stalk the person... ...i seek revenge... ...and i reek of vengeance... ...the person... ...will no longer have the luxury of backstabbing ever again... ...and will never ever stain the world with Selfish Thoughts ever again...And i Will See To It.
Jinius Tan Ha Ha [10/04/2005 09:28:00 PM]
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